Whatever!!

So now I started reading how to cool a dissatisfied mind etc stuff to ease out my worries.. Sometimes I really wonder when I hear views from some of my so called intellectual acquaintances say how their other half should be.
They say - they want a shy demure beautiful homely girl.. and yes she should not be of their intellectual level.. although they dont say this but they do want this..
Common, a dumb blonde like that - would ofcourse know how to keep your home beautiful but would you like spending your life with a dumb statue who wont even intellectually stimulate you, who you know would only be able to listen to your problems and not understand them and wont be able to help you with that.. who you know wont be able to teach your children the importance of studies.. she herself has hardly any academic feat to inspire.. is that what a life partner is for.. to look nice when she is beside your arm.. and not to share and understand you..

2 hoots to all those guys who are looking for a pretty face partner..

I dont want to go to a studio to click some matrimonial pics..

The guys who my father is talking to abt my marriage first want to see my photograph to consider me in their list.. and My dad wants me to go to a studio and click some nice pics..

Looks looks looks.. does that all matter when you are searching your partner..

Boohoo and one more hoo for you all!!

Confusions Cornucopia

My life is full of confusions and self doubts right now [ what a pathetic way to start a blog post!! hmff ]
Na sachi.. I am not in my senses or so it seems with the way I am shaping up my life..
My dad is looking for Mr right for me.. and he is trying very hard to find the perfect one.. But every single person he comes up with and discusses with me.. I never seem satisfied.. I want him to try harder and find the best..

Now this is what is bothering me.. I want him to find the best while all my life when I had to do something for myself , I had settled for mediocrity instead of trying harder..
I settled for a mediocrity when I decided to join a State college instead of preparing for IIT..
I settled for mediocrity when I took up this Quality job when I know how much more I am capable of doing..
I settled for mediocrity.. I didnt try much..

and now when my father is trying for me.. I dont want to settle for mediocrity... When I was responsible for my own actions, Mediocrity was fine but when it is somebody else , It has to be the best!!

Have i stooped that low?? To expect from others what i am myself unable to achieve?

I dont want to marry .. not now.. but seeing so much efforts my dad is making, I dont want to him to be worried and troubled over all this... I am not sure if the next guy he brings, whether I would say yes and let him be relieved of all the tensions.. I dont know what am I going to do..
Uff .. so much confusions!!

I am scared!!

I know it may sound foolsih to some people but i printed 200 pages of a book through the office printer and i am scared that i may get caught!!

There is this fear in my heart!! my heart beat is beating faster as still the paper is printing and its been 20 mins..
I just hope nobody come in here and checks out what i am doing..
and wat heck if they found who printed such a large copy from my IP!!

I dont know if main faaltu ki chinta kar rahi hoon..

I guess i have felt this fear before too!!

I dreamed four years back that i am sitting somewhere and all the people are racing and i feel that i cant compete with them.. i have lost..
I am way behind..
I feel like drowning myslef..
All have beaten me and i am left behind alone..

I am feeling the same sensation right now..

God.. i know what i am doing right now is not right but please be with me..
please stay with me!!

I know i would do this again!
But please God.. save me!!

Finally Off from office!!

Hmmm.. so I am on a vacation now.. 2 days off actually from office and then Saturaday and Sunday.. that makes 4 complete days at Home.. yippees... 4 days of waking up at 12 or 1 ..hehe.. 4 days of not cooking food.. 4 days of just watching Tv.. chatting with Mom all day..
ahh.. i would also have to tolerate silly Pjs from my brother these 4 days.. but thats ok.. since Ihe tends to make us all on his silly Pjs..
and yes.. I would also be attending my best friend's wedding tomorrow.. awww... I think i am more xcited abt it that she must be.. We were together since Class 3rd.. n i couldnt beleive my ears when she said she is going to marry this month.. I mean i consider ourselves too young to marry :p
Ok .. Ok .. i realize sometimes that yes I am getting old.. since sometimes.. when i see a handsome guy n my heart skips a beat.. he usually turns out to be younger than me.. I guess I am getting old.. sigh.. I too should now say yes to my parents and start searching Mr right!!

God .. I wish I was a chameleon!!

I had never thought that i would be writing a blog post out of frustration..
frustration coz my piece of code isnt working..
I want to punish all those Microsoft developers who made this stupid language asp where the code may be running a few moments ago and then it will stop working..
Its the third consecutive day that i am working on this stupid little code and it is playing hide and seek with me..
Why cant there be just one language in the world which all can speak write understand and that includes our biggest friends/ enemies - Computers!!!
How easy it is for computers to adapt to a new language and how difficult for us human beings to move from one to another..( every year there is a boom of a different language)
If anybody has an idea how to adapt to these changing languages.. please share it with me too..
Million thanks in advance!!

God .. i wish i was a chameleon!! ( if you understand what i mean here ...sigh [:(] )

So..
this is my first post n i havent blogged till date..
yes.. i have seen blogs.. the one posted by my some of my collegues.. those who write just for putting down their stupid poems somewhere ..poems which otherwise nobody would care to read..

Lets see how this one turns out to be..


He who knows nothing thinks he knows everything