Confusions Cornucopia

My life is full of confusions and self doubts right now [ what a pathetic way to start a blog post!! hmff ]
Na sachi.. I am not in my senses or so it seems with the way I am shaping up my life..
My dad is looking for Mr right for me.. and he is trying very hard to find the perfect one.. But every single person he comes up with and discusses with me.. I never seem satisfied.. I want him to try harder and find the best..

Now this is what is bothering me.. I want him to find the best while all my life when I had to do something for myself , I had settled for mediocrity instead of trying harder..
I settled for a mediocrity when I decided to join a State college instead of preparing for IIT..
I settled for mediocrity when I took up this Quality job when I know how much more I am capable of doing..
I settled for mediocrity.. I didnt try much..

and now when my father is trying for me.. I dont want to settle for mediocrity... When I was responsible for my own actions, Mediocrity was fine but when it is somebody else , It has to be the best!!

Have i stooped that low?? To expect from others what i am myself unable to achieve?

I dont want to marry .. not now.. but seeing so much efforts my dad is making, I dont want to him to be worried and troubled over all this... I am not sure if the next guy he brings, whether I would say yes and let him be relieved of all the tensions.. I dont know what am I going to do..
Uff .. so much confusions!!