Whatever!!

So now I started reading how to cool a dissatisfied mind etc stuff to ease out my worries.. Sometimes I really wonder when I hear views from some of my so called intellectual acquaintances say how their other half should be.
They say - they want a shy demure beautiful homely girl.. and yes she should not be of their intellectual level.. although they dont say this but they do want this..
Common, a dumb blonde like that - would ofcourse know how to keep your home beautiful but would you like spending your life with a dumb statue who wont even intellectually stimulate you, who you know would only be able to listen to your problems and not understand them and wont be able to help you with that.. who you know wont be able to teach your children the importance of studies.. she herself has hardly any academic feat to inspire.. is that what a life partner is for.. to look nice when she is beside your arm.. and not to share and understand you..

2 hoots to all those guys who are looking for a pretty face partner..

I dont want to go to a studio to click some matrimonial pics..

The guys who my father is talking to abt my marriage first want to see my photograph to consider me in their list.. and My dad wants me to go to a studio and click some nice pics..

Looks looks looks.. does that all matter when you are searching your partner..

Boohoo and one more hoo for you all!!

Confusions Cornucopia

My life is full of confusions and self doubts right now [ what a pathetic way to start a blog post!! hmff ]
Na sachi.. I am not in my senses or so it seems with the way I am shaping up my life..
My dad is looking for Mr right for me.. and he is trying very hard to find the perfect one.. But every single person he comes up with and discusses with me.. I never seem satisfied.. I want him to try harder and find the best..

Now this is what is bothering me.. I want him to find the best while all my life when I had to do something for myself , I had settled for mediocrity instead of trying harder..
I settled for a mediocrity when I decided to join a State college instead of preparing for IIT..
I settled for mediocrity when I took up this Quality job when I know how much more I am capable of doing..
I settled for mediocrity.. I didnt try much..

and now when my father is trying for me.. I dont want to settle for mediocrity... When I was responsible for my own actions, Mediocrity was fine but when it is somebody else , It has to be the best!!

Have i stooped that low?? To expect from others what i am myself unable to achieve?

I dont want to marry .. not now.. but seeing so much efforts my dad is making, I dont want to him to be worried and troubled over all this... I am not sure if the next guy he brings, whether I would say yes and let him be relieved of all the tensions.. I dont know what am I going to do..
Uff .. so much confusions!!