I really feel like writing something whenever i encounter something that disturbs my mind..
I know one should not write things atleast publicily when one is disturbed or angry at somebody but then I would have rather tell these things on one's face than be a coward and write those things here..
okay.. so here is what I have thought i would write to lower my frustation level :p
- Write 5 things that i dislike about that person
- Call him/her names..huhaaa.. a name for each quality that has been written above. Like.. I hate this guy for always buttering my manager.. I call him spoon.. and then there is a person who would always speak inappropriate things about me infront of my manager..I call her loser.. then there one person whose attitude i just hate..i call him RR! - redefining rudeness.. GRRRRRRRR.. i must stop this ranting!!

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Easy Dulhan

i thought that my ordeal had ended last friday when I got married.. those shopping and packing tensions.. those pre-bridal waxings.. that 6 hour ordeal of being a statue for the make-up artist.. those 4 hours of uncomfortable postures so that the mehandi doesnt get spoilt.. that carrying 20 kg heavy burden of the lehenga for the entire night... those 2 kg earrings and those days of seperation from my beloved..
I thought I had accomplished the most ardous task and life would be easy now...

Alas!!!

Becoming the Dulhan is still an easy task...

Just like that

I was reading my past entries and realized how naive and foolish I had been in the past- living in my own fantasies , creating a picture of the rosy realities. To anyone looking at my life- it will seem perfect - a very loving husband who exactly matches the criteria I had set for my prospective groom- he is even better than I had ever thought and a cute innocent kid that fills my heart with joy whenever I look at her - a fat paying corporate job - grandparents to take care of the kid when I go to office - Everything is perfect. I should be happy. But still everyday is a bloody battle in my mind where I try to think of ways to keep my spirits happy and create a lively atmosphere for everyone at home. It takes a lot of effort to ignore the noise - ignore office politics , ignore mil rant about how incompetent I am at managing home and in general how incompetent I am - ignoring the slowness in work - ignoring the bore that I feel for the routine boring things I have to do to everyday from keeping things going haywire. It seriously takes a lot of effort to be happy. There is a passive state in which I want to sulk myself into where I just don't want to do any work and not make any effort - just see things from a higher dimension or be in a coma state where I get effected by nothing and nothing effects me. But I can't really afford that - not with a kid and a family to take care of. So, I know of my options now and since there is only option - I better gear myself for it. Be happy and look for ways to be happy. Fight that bloody battle everyday and accept that you have to put effort. There is no running away. Go, just listen to some good music now.